That boy

Nan hai

By Liang Bo

Once upon a time, they fell in love on accident

At an era where there was no hesitation
They thought they understood
So, they loved to their heart’s content
A pair of hands, held so firmly that they can’t be separated
Striving for the future in their hearts
Oh
I can’t forget your love
But the final result is hard to change
I couldn’t make you stay
Not like him, who could give you a
future to look forward to
That childish boy
Hu
The love and care you have is always by my side
By my side
When there is no one else, I take it out
I want to ask you now
Now
Whether you are weighed down with sorrow anymore
Weighed down with sorrow anymore
Like the sunshine that lies down on the sea
Like diligently painted colors
That make you smile, that make you feel brave
I can’t forget your love
But the end result is hard to change
I couldn’t make you stay
Not like him, who could give you a
future to look forward to
That childish boy
Hu
Yeah
Wow
Wow
Ah
I’m missing you right now
Thinking of you, whenever I pace about
All the regrets, they are not the future
All the love is hard to avoid in the end
Cannot escape from the pain
No need to start over again
Hu
Ah
Na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Right now, I just hope that the hurt will leave its place to joy
Since we are not able to start over again.
Hu
Hu

Lagu ni... Lagu ni... This girl feels the boy...

 Tetiba budak perempuan ni teringat air mata dia yang mengalir sebab hati yang menanggung kepedihan, kesakitan.. Saat-saat dia rasa macam orang gila.. Hilang separuh nyawa..

Sekarang ni, hati dia kosong.. Kosong sekosong-kosongnya.. Air mata pon dah kering.. Kenangan pon makin pudar.. Beberapa tahun kebelakangan ni, tak de lagi mimpi-mimpi yang buat bantal dia basah.. Haha..  Tak de lagi sedu sedan bila jaga dari tidor.. Adakah itu maksudnya yang....

She's

fully 

recovered!!

...

...

And

...

...

It's

time

for

her

to

move

on

...

...

...

tapi

...

...

...

betul ke??

#I'malivebutnotliving

#Lifegoeson

Smile :)

 

Cik Yaya selalu fikir yang semua orang dalam dunia ni ada masalah masing-masing.. Ada yang dalam kesedihan, kelaparan, kemiskinan, kerugian, ketakutan, kerisauan.. Macam-macam lagilah..

Cik Yaya selalu doa agar semua orang yang bermasalah tu tersenyum..

Cik Yaya harap akan ada seseorang atau sesuatu yang akan membahagiakan diorang..

Mungkin dari senyuman  seorang ibu..

Mungkin dari redup pandangan seorang ayah..

Mungkin dari sentuhan seorang anak kecil..

Mungkin dari gengaman tangan seorang kekasih..

Mungkin dari tawa bersama sahabat sejati...

Mungkin dari telatah haiwan kesayangan.

Mungkin dari pandangan mata yang mencuit hati..

Mungkin dari telinga yang mendengar kisah-kisah penglipur lara..

Dari apa sahaja yang akan buat mereka tersenyum dan dapat menyembuhkan hati dari masalah-masalah yang dihadapi.. Mari wujudkan dunia yang bahagia!!

#Keepsmiling

#Youarenotalone

#Bestrong

#Benice

When the radio feels me..

I Hate Myself for Loving You

by Joan Jett & the Blackhearts

Midnight, gettin' uptight, where are you?
You said you'd meet me, now it's quarter to two
I know I'm hangin' but I'm still wantin' you

Hey Jack, it's a fact they're talkin' in town
I turn my back and you're messin' around
I'm not getting jealous, don't like lookin' like a clown

I think of you every night and day
You took my heart, and you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you
That's why I hate myself for loving you

Daylight, spent the night without you
But I've been dreamin' 'bout the lovin' you do
I'm over being angry 'bout the hell you put me through

Hey man, bet you can't treat me right
You just don't know what you was missin' last night
I wanna see you beggin', say, "Forget it" just for spite

I think of you every night and day
You took my heart, and you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you
That's why I hate myself for loving you

I think of you every night and day
You took my heart, and you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you
That's why I hate myself for loving you

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you
That's why I hate myself for loving you

I hate myself (ow, uh)
For loving you
I hate myself (ow, uh)
For loving you
I hate myself (ow, ow, ow)
For loving you
I hate myself (ow)
I hate myself
For loving you

Thanks for the song bro!

Unsettled, unfinished feeling

Semalam kan... Semalam.. Semalam Cik Yaya tengok satu drama Cina. Seharian melayan.. Tapi kan.. Tapi kan.. Cerita tu ending dia tak seperti yang Cik Yaya harapkann! Arghhhhhh! Uwaaaaa... Sedih, geram, tak puas hati! Rasa macam tak boleh move on hari ni. Masih bertanya-tanya kenapa ending dia begitu. Masih terbayang-bayang. Kenapa berakhir macam tu? Arggggghhhh!! Kejam!! Kenapa diorang tak boleh bersama? Kenapa kena berpisah? Sakit tau dak?

Inilah perempuan. Kesannya, semua yang dibuat hari ni serba tak kena. Rasa moody ja... Sebab tak tau nak lepaskan perasaan ni, Cik Yaya cuba tulis post ni. Harap-harap lepas luah kat sini, bolehla move on. 

Apa-apa pon, para pelakon tu memang pandai berlakon. Perasaan tu sampai dan menusuk ke kalbu. Diorang nangis, Cik Yaya nangis, diorang ketawa, Cik Yaya ketawa. 

Tak nak tengok cerita apa-apa dah lepas ni. Nak baca buku pulak. Merajuk dengan ending semalam!! 

Kan! Tak nak kawan! Sayonara! Arggggghhhh

Sakit kepala!

Akhirnya tamat 2 hari kursus online semalam dan hari ni. Dari jam 8.30 pagi hingga jam 4.30 petang.. 2 hari mengadap laptop dan telefon. Sakit kepala! Berpinar mata! Ini la gaknya perasaan bebudak bila mengadap PdPR. Cik Yaya yang tua pon susah nak hadam bila mengadap online class ni. Tapi demi ilmu dan komitmen, akan ku usahakan jugak. Minggu depan ada lagi. InsyaAllah.. 😀

Ganbatte Yaya!! 

When we were us

 I miss them....

I miss the moments...

I miss all the crazy things that we did...

🥰🥰🥰

My own sweet time..

Dulu sebelum bertukar sekolah, Cik Yaya akan memandu 30~45 minit ke sekolah setiap hari. Dalam perjalanan, Cik Yaya akan dengar lagu-lagu kegemaran sambil berfikir tentang kehidupan.. Merefleksi segala yang terjadi dalam hidup.. Rasa mcam satu terapi. Kadang-kadang Cik Yaya tak sedar sampai ke mana. Dah terlepas simpang ke belum. Tapi Alhamdulillah.. Allah masih lindungi.. Masih on track di atas jalan. Walaupon banyak kali jugakla hampir terbabas atau mencium kereta lain.. Mungkin sebab penat asyik berulang-alik juga kot.. Haha.

Sekarang ni sekolah cuma 5-6 minit dari rumah. Nak pasang lagu pon tak sempat.. Syukur atas nikmat ni.. 

Jadi sekarang, masa balik kampung la jadi sweet time. 1 jam perjalanan. Rasa nikmat sangat dapat dengar lagu, berfikir, berefleksi dan termenung sepanjang perjalanan.. Bahagianya rasa.. Love it!!

Sweet time, my way!

Tapi mulai esok 1 Jun, tak dapat nak balik kampung lagi.. Walaupon 1 daerah. Malaysians are facing lockdown due to covid-19 pandemic. Movement allowed is in 10 km radius only. Ottoke? Go away covid!! Shuh, shuh!