Saturday, 15 July 2023

Akhirnya, aku curang!!

Tahun ni boleh kata Cik Yaya banyak mengubah kebiasaan. Selama ni, Cik Yaya selalu beranggapan bahawa 'setia' adalah satu kebanggaan dan sangat perlu dalam kehidupan. Takut untuk curang. 

Contohnya telco telefon. Cik Yaya guna telco yang sama selama lebih kurang 15 tahun. Bersabar dengan segala ragam. Awal tahun ni, Cik Yaya ambil keputusan untuk bertukar. Keputusan drastik yang Cik Yaya buat masa tengah membeli belah di sebuah mall. Hasilnya agak mengejutkan. Bahagia dan hilang beban yang ditanggung. Walaupon pada mulanya agak ragu dengan keputusan sendiri. Banyak lagi benda dan perkara lain yang telah Cik Yaya curangi dan mungkiri tahun ni. Dan setakat hari ni, semuanya memberi kebaikan. 

Terasa bodohnya di situ bila memikirkan kesetiaan yang Cik Yaya berikan selama ini. Berapa banyak pilihan yang Cik Yaya ada, tapi tidak pernah dipertimbangkan. Semuanya atas dasar kesetiaan. 

Biar pon lambat kesedaran ni datang, Cik Yaya tetap gembira dan menghargainya. Pengalaman hidup yang bermakna. Lepas ni, Cik Yaya takkan teragak-agak lagi dengan perubahan!! Tak mahu setia lagi.. Jom curang! Yey!

Wednesday, 5 July 2023

Dulang girls

Me, being the dulang girl for Majlis Hari Anugerah Kecemerlangan Sekolah. Together with my colleagues planning, ordering, arranging and all. My awesome team ever! Tq so much everyone! Alhamdulillah.. Everything went smoothly as planned.






Happy!!

Sunday, 11 June 2023

Not you

Song by Alan Walker and Emma Steinbakken


In my life, in my mind

Where I make up stories all the time

And I pretend that I am not someone

Left to face the world alone

Lately I'm not the same

I've found a stranger calling out my name

Have a feeling you would be so proud

And he's gon' need me now

But he's not you

He's not you

He will never be you

Photobook with my mistakes

Promises that we never got to make

All the things I wanna talk about

Hard to say it to myself

Wintertime, once again

In the snow I can see just where I've been

How far I've made it in the world so cold

Where I have everything

But he's not you

He's not you

He will never be you

But he's not you

He's not you

He will never be you



Friday, 9 June 2023

World

Selalu tengok dalam movie, ada adegan macam ni. Heroin tengah dalam masalah macam kena tangkap ka,  nak kena bunuh ka, tetiba hero datang selamatkan. Betul-betul on time. Heroin rasa lega tak terhingga..

Recently, I really hope my hero will come and save me.. Please come! Please save me! Please!

Save me from this world. It's frightening. It's tiring.. I'm drowning.. Deeper, day by day.. Gasping for the true meaning of life.. Who am I? What is my values? Where is my smile? When does everything started to fall apart?




Tuesday, 25 April 2023

Blame my stupid heart

 


My stupid heart doesn't know 
I've tried to let you go 
So many times before 
Then wound up at your door, 
my stupid 

Can’t believe that I haven’t figured out by now
Every time I call you up 
All you do is let me down 
Should have known there was nothing about us I could change 
Every time we try to be friends it always ends the same 

But when I try to remember 
All the pain that we’ve been through 
Something in me says “whatever” 
And it brings me back to you 

My stupid heart 
Don’t know I’ve tried to let you go 
So many times before 
Then wound up at your door
My stupid heart 
Too late 
Already on my way 
If we go down in flames 
Again then you can blame my stupid heart 
You can blame my stupid heart 
You can blame my stupid... 

When I blame myself, I get so caught up in you 
I keep coming back to the heart that left me blue 
And I don't know why I keep tryin' to explain 
My irresponsible ways, I guess I like the pain 

But when I try to remember 
All the pain that we’ve been through 
Something in me says “whatever” 
And it brings me back to you 

My stupid heart 
Don’t know I’ve tried to let you go 
So many times before 
Then wound up at your door 
My stupid heart 
Too late 
Already on my way 
If we go down in flames 
Again then you can blame my stupid heart 

You can blame my stupid heart 
I’ve tried to let you go 
So many times before 
You can blame my stupid heart 
Too late 
Already on my way 
If we go down in flames 
Again then you can blame my stupid heart 
Too late 
Already on my way 
If we go down in flames 
Again then you can blame my stupid heart


Saturday, 8 April 2023

Lost and counting

Where is the feeling?

I'm paralyzed

Living, but not alive

I'm losing everyday

Second by second 

Becoming an empty shell

What has happened to the empathy?


Where is the feeling?

Everything is numb and tasteless

Heaven and hell become pale

Good or bad, I can't tell

Who am I?

What am I doing?


Where is the feeling?

Where is the feeling?


Yaya

17 Ramadhan 1444H